maybe a day off?

today I am frustrated. No idea why.

i just am.

I went to the gym this morning- combat class- normally when I do that, I can work off any frustration. But I wasn't frustrated this morning.

Just became that way this afternoon.

Maybe because I didn't get a good night's sleep last night? Probably because I jinxed myself yesterday when I claimed to be sleeping good.

Maybe because I have thoughts, ideas, colors and themes going all through my head of this awesome big boy room that i want to create?

Maybe because work is slow- or I am busy- but it seems others are slow to make a move.

Maybe it's the weather. It's cold. Overcast. No blue sunny skies. I am ready for Spring.

maybe maybe maybe

Maybe I just need a day off. A sunny day off. That would be nice.

Side by Side- 16 weeks

so side by side at 16 weeks. The one in the polariod is the latest and the other (with my dog's big ol head in the front) is the 1st time around.

What do you think?

I feel like I look thicker (I really don't like that word- but I can think of a better one) but anyhow- the first time around I look different than this time. Don't you think? I didn't 'pop' out the 1st time around until about 24 weeks- don't think I am going to make it that long this time around. Which is OK with me! I am ready to get out of this 'bloated' stage and have an actual bump. Not just a bloat.

How far along? 16 weeks- 4 months- whew- some weeks seem to go by really fast- and some slow- but over all pretty quick

Body Changes? no real updates here- I feel weaker- push-ups are harder- but body wise- nothing really.

Sleep: I am actually sleeping good. I am not even getting up in the middle of the night to pee. Hmmm.... not sure why? Is it the new bed? the body pillow? I have no idea- and I am not complaining. Sleep is good. shhhh... don't jinx me.

Best moment this week: This week- well TODAY my youngest son turned 3! wow. how time flies. We celebrated his b-day with family and friends. We also discussed his big boy room decorations and even bought a few paint samples- so ready to start that project!

Food Cravings: Still no cravings. We have made some good food-  and we ate some yummy sweets- but I know a craving when I see one.... and there haven't been any. booo.

What I miss: this week- Beer. and the non- alcoholic kind just isn't cuttin it.

Symptoms: My tummy is starting to harden up- especially when I hold K- where his little knees hit on my stomach feels weird. It's hard to explain but I have a feeling pretty soon some one is going to start pushing his knees away from the inside.

What I am looking forward to: Starting on the room. and making the 'offical' announcement on FB and sharing the gender reveal with everyone!

Workouts: All good- the past 2 weeks I have fit in 11 workouts- so still going strong.

Milestones: 16 weeks- also took the Materna21 test- just a blood test- but it will confirm the gender! isn't that crazy? Should get those results in this week.

Poke Poke- Wake Up!

*written 1/3/12*

Ok- seriously.

I have been anticipating feeling movement from day one. I have heard that feeling movement will come much earlier the 2nd time around. I didn't feel your big brother move until around 20 weeks- I think. So a little on the late side there.

The past 2 weeks- we have definitely felt a jab here- and a jab there. In fact one night I was laying on the couch and stretched and closed my eyes and felt a BIG jab. I accused your Dad of poking me in the stomach and he just looked at me like I was crazy. Claiming that he didn't do it. So..... it must have been you.

Well hello...

But then last night you were in full swing party mode. You may be tiny- but you are packing a big punch or kick- or some get down dance moves. Maybe all 3- who knows? And I can't remember from your brother- but all of this movement seems to be coming from much higher- like around my rib area. Is that where you are hanging out? No wonder heart burn is something serious around here.

On top of my normal toss and turn- I was awoken several times by a little person from the inside. I hope this is not insight into how you will be as a teenager.... or have you inherited your Dad's dance moves?

And here is the crazy part- I can't be too mad at you because I am unsure if all of this really happened? Or if I just dreamed the whole thing?

hmmm.....

In the beginning- round two

*so just so you all aren't confused- I am writing this 11/7/12- but not posting since we have made the official announcement yet.*

So round two- not sure what I was expecting- but I feel like BAM over night I was hit like a ton of bricks with pregnancy symptoms.

I am constantly hungry- or wanting something to eat, to snack on, but I just can't figure out what it is that I want. This makes for a lot of making something- nibbling on it- and then putting it away- because it just wasn't the one. Like baked asparagus with some Sirachi sauce to dip in- like the best thing I have ever tasted one day. Then the next day- taste like dog food. And of course- bloated. Or just plain out gaining weight. But hey- no beer in the diet- so I have a few calories to spare here and there- right?

Been drinking milk and ginger ale. Not together. Feeling nauseous on occasion. So hoping the Ginger Ale will help with that. Mostly feeling it in the middle of the night. So much for 'morning sickness' oh- and waking up in the middle of the night- ugh! sucks! it seems to take me forever to fall back asleep or get comfortable- and then the nauseous feeling... doesn't make it any easier. I thought all that happened towards the end- not the beginning??

Other than that.... feeling pretty good. Goll-ly- I guess I just had a complain fest up there- only to say that all is good. lol.

It is.

I am sticking with my workouts- and I think that is definitely helping keep my energy level up. Got to make sure I have on a goodgoodgood supportive sports bra. Don't. need. any. movement. upthere.

I am enjoying as much snuggle time as I can get with my sweet BabyK (that I guess won't be the baby anymore) And we are in full swing with band and basketball with the older kids.

Of course, I have all the irrational fears- that I assume all 2nd time moms have. I was an only child growing up (I have a 1/2 brother and a 1/2 sister that live in another state) but for the most part- it was just me. So this is all new territory. Come to find out- other moms have irrational fears too.

I know they say every pregnancy is different- so I guess we will see what all this little Tiki Torch has in store for us. and you may wonder 'tiki torch- that's an interesting nick name?'

why yes- yes it is.

and let me show you- or explain. creating these wine bottle tiki torches- we made 4- that's 4 bottles of MacMurry Pinot Noir 2009 sooo good. We wanted all the torches to match- duh.

also created this.

so there you go.

Doctor's appointment next week (11/13) where hopefully we will find out all the details and get a due date! I will keep you posted.

The sound of life

Today (11/13/12) we heard your heart beat. Just 7 weeks 1 day- and we saw that little flutter that all parents look for. Then- we zoomed in- and we listened.

Just the best sound.

We found out that your due date- will be July 1, 2013. Which you may or may not make an appearance on that day- but at least we know what we are shooting for. I am aiming for June 24th- yes- that sounds like a nice birthdate.

And guess what else?

 Since I will be "Mature Maternal Age" when you arrive- and that's just a fancy of way of saying old. Which I am not! But anyhow- we can use that as a way to run all kinds of tests. One being a blood test that will confirm if you are a boy or girl. WOW.

At first- everything seemed to moving so slow. And now- moving very fast.

You just keep on growing. You will be here before we know it. We love you already. You have 2 big brothers and a big sister that are going to be very excited. Not to mention TONS of grand parents that will be ready to spoil you.

12 weeks- it's official

12 weeks- here we go again!

*written on 12/28/12*

Body Changes? -even thought I really feel like my body made some super fast changes this time around- looking back and comparing pictures and all- it's really not. To be honest I felt like BAM as soon as we got a positive test- it was like over night- I was 4 months along. I am so glad that I kept this blog the 1st time around- because it's nice to be able to go back and compare.

Sleep: ahhhh we got a new bed for Christmas. So far- it's great. My sweet husband also bought me this awesome pillow- LOVE it! Highly recommend one to everyone. I like- K likes it- my husband even tries to steal it- 

Best moment this week: Christmas with the kids and having family over. We had lots of fun- ate lots of good food and just enjoyed family time.

Food Cravings: Same really as last time- carbs are more appealing to me- but no real cravings.

What I miss: Right now- not much. I guess sushi- but hey- that's a given. I did find a roll that I really like- that has all cooked meat in it- so it's like cheat sushi.

Symptoms: bloated. tossing and turning at night. wearing super supportive sports bras at the gym. heartburn. 

What I am looking forward to: let's see- what do we have coming up? New Years. My Bday. K's 3rd Bday. Lots to celebrate.

Workouts: One thing I said I was going to stick to was working out. And I am. Still in the gym 4-5 days a week. Boot Camp, Combat class, Weights, and I did a Flow class last week that I did enjoy. The plan is to work that class into the rotation too.

Milestones: Making the 12 week mark is always a great milestone. Sharing news with family and friends always makes everything more 'real'- no posts on FB yet- but maybe next year.

We did get the gender from our last sonogram. I have it written down- in an envelope- in my purse! Like right now! The plan is to reveal on my bday! Only one more week to go- I have had a dream that it's a boy- then last night I dreamed it's a girl. So who knows?